New year coming up n all

Well, 2008 is getting over and you all know that. This new year called 2009 is coming up and people have already started making all their resolutions like "I will reduce my weight", "I will study harder", "I will exercise more", "I will roam around less", "I will blah blah", "I will this crap, that crap..", etc... But you know what, they hardly remember their own resoultions by the time the first month ends (I took 1 month to explain my point here, and its pretty long trust me). Why all the resoulutions? Simply be what you are, and do what is right and what you think you should do. No guilt nowhere. Bindaas it will be then. Enjoy people, dont waste time in all this.

Computer games and real life

You know, after so long an era of gaming in my life, if at all it had a side effect on my life permanently is that I have started taking my life a little boldly. Now how is this related to gaming? let me explain...

In a computer game, you play a character (thats in a role playing, third person game) and as the game proceeds you get involved into it so much that you almost start believing that the character is you. When he fights, you roar like a lion. When he fails, you feel fallen. When he finds a new path, you see hope. When he succeeds, you rejoice as if you succeeded. I dont blame this, because its actually you who are in control of his moves. And when he dies, or meses up somewhere, you will have to start again from the previous check point or save point, and now this is precisely what I am going to talk about.

Computer games give you a second chance if you lose or die or mess up during the game, but life doesnt. You have a one shot chance at everything. But what computer games can teach you is how to strategise before making a move. let me explain. In a computer game you obviously dont want to mess up or die or anything, so before you make a move you think what will happen if you do so, hence you see your various options before a move. As you keep on gaming, you wont make a mistake making any move because you would have thought about it deeply and analysed the situation before making that move. And this experience helps in life. In life where you have to make difficult moves, you analyse the different possibilities, options etc and then make your move. You have the experience of thinking logically that way. And very little will you make mistakes. This even increases your level of boldness towards things. You also know where to take risk and where not to. 

This way, atleast I think computer games have made some impact over my way of life.. :)

Moodi

Moodi ... aahh... well I was there for the last 4-5 days. It was from 20-23rd december, cult fest of IIT Bombay, it was good. I aint a cult guy that much, I mean even though I practice veena, karate and guitar, except these I dont have that much interest in others. But at moodi there were so many awesome events that caught my eye and was damn enjoyable. 

But, the essence of this trip was not 'moodi', i mean not the events or anything. I have been to rock shows earlier, been to street performances earlier, been to such things, and this was not worse, was as good as them, so my point is that it wasnt these shows that were the essence of the trip, but rather it was those night outs I had with 'ladoo'. I dont know what was with others, I mean i wasnt with others all the time, we always used to miss. But me and ladoo were always together. Never could we be with the group, we tried but couldnt. It didnt matter, we had so much fun together. Never could I have imagined that this was possible, three night-outs together, was seriously awesome. She is my bestest friend ever. Never will I forget her, all the time we were together, all the fun we had, was it some dream? I cant express this in words. All literature are ashamed of their incapability to express what I want to say. But the thing is that, I never even thought that something like this would happen. I always thought that since so many people will come, we will roam around and all. But what happend was totally opposite. Me and ladoo stayed together and roamed around, and that was "awesome". It was as if all this was meant for to happen. It had to be this way. Probably if everyone were together, we wouldnt hav had this much fun at all. Its different you know. I am glad we were together all the time. I enjoyed Mumbai totally thanks to her. One company I always had when I felt left out, I never felt it again. I owe her big-time now.

The MATRIX that we are in...

Our world.... hushhh... my god. What a place. I mean have you ever had this feeling that, you know, you can change things around you magically if you just believe in doing it? I mean isnt this... uuh what do you say, magical of some sort? Dont you get the feeling that this world aint all that real? Or is it the definition of real in your perception? What is real? How do you define real?

"Have you ever had a dream you were so sure it was real? What if you are unable to wake up from that dream? How would you know the diference between the dream world and the real world?"

This is the precisely the question I am very much interested in and am eager to know the answer. Ok fine, its true that this is Morpheus's dialogue from the movie matrix, but Whatever it is, it has got lot of meaning to it. I mean isnt it so precise? The real answer you want to know in life. Where are we? What are we? How are we? and it goes on...

Well I am sure that there is no such guy who will answer this question properly today in this world. But nevertheless, I will try to answer it myself. 

This world is like a cocoon, and you are in it, enslaved, cant get out of it. You are still larval, and you are meant to be larval throughout your life. So basically you cannot get out of the cocoon. And thats how the world fools you. It makes you believe that this cocoon is the entire world. Thats because you have seen just the cocoon all through your life, and nothing more. So you dont know what or how it is beyond the walls of this cocoon. You cant even imagine it. Its almost impossible beacause you are made to believe so. 

Humans trust their eyes so much, and I mean so much you know, that people believe everything that they see. They wont rest until they have got a visual proof of things. Everyone wants to 'see' what goes on. But eyes decieve you most of the times. They play tricks on you. They adapt to 'what you want to see' and not 'what really is'. They manipulate you, manipulate to make you believe what you see. Fool you.

But beyond this visual world there is a huge vastness of the world thats not visible. The visible world is just a small 0.001% of the actual world. Its just a curtian thats drawn before your eyes to keep you away from the truth. But the other 'non-visual' world is certainly vast, and thats the world that we need to use properly to manipulate the visual world into what we want. And the door/gateway to that 'non-visual' world is "belief". 

This world is like a computer program. Not a perfect one, but with errors and loopholes. And to employ these loopholes into our benifit, we need to see beyond whats seen. So, to do it, we need to believe that it can be done, against the general perception or the belief we are befooled to that it cant be done. And this has interestingly +ve results in most cases, hence proving the existance of this 'non-visual' world. So, the rules of this world CAN be bent, some CAN be broken, some can be TWISTED, ONLY of YOU believe so.

The world is yours baby. Do whatever you wish to do. Its all in your hands, no-one else. Fate has no role. Its just a lie to make you believe again the matrix/unreal world. So, dont fall prey... rock on.

Cheers!!!

I AM WRONG!!!

Well, my last post proved itself wrong... the weight hasnt been lifted. Its back again, heavier than ever now... damn ... what a life... questions unanswerable even though the answers are right there, and questions unanswerable as the answers arent there, and probably never will... oh god!!!

Weight lifted off my head

ahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

A huge tension has been lifted off my head, atleast thats what I think so. I had been taking a lot of tension over an "issue" for long time now. But, I just felt that its over. I could feel it. Hehe .. maybe its true. But somewhere, it pains a bit letting it go. Maybe I let it go for the better. Sacrifice, perhaps. And is it really that big, that I dont want to admit? ... well, time will say, just like it said something after a long time. 

But, I am sure of one thing. I mostly have done the right thing, letting it go, free like a bird. I would have created more problem having it. Its all for the best, maybe not mine, but others. Atleast I dont have the guilt that I have screwed up someone's life. Nice. I ... just let it go... and this is not give up. Far away from it. A proper decision maybe from my side, an intelligent one perhaps. Whichever it is, I am back to myself once again ... or am I???

now-a-days

Well, to frankly say, the days which are going by are a little weird. I mean sometimes I go crazy, psycho type mad, and sometimes I go nuts, sometimes serious, sometimes I wont give a crap about anything, sometimes happy, sometimes screwed up, sometimes afraid, sometimes I feel I wanna kick someone's ass badly (birthdays are near, feel my wrath .. ), sometimes I am lost in thought, sometimes I stay blank, sometimes I feel like I have a doctrate in electronics (like thats true... hehe)... and so on ... and all of them happen in one day, the best part. Still, I dont give a crap (ok, maybe I am in the 'I wont give a crap' mood now..), still, I dont know what to say... All I can say is that its weird. My fate is cloudy. There are so much clouds that I keep wondering where all the water and dust came from.. hehe.. and its like me and my fallen fate are playing a game, and it seems like the game is fixed against me. I dont have any other choice but play just for the fun of it. crap! anyways, now I dont see a point in writing this thread, still I do it... well, let me get back to work (and work means studying, as majors are coming near... :P )... adieu!

the world, where it stands

The world today has many great nations. Every nations aimed at pece with every other. Diplomatic. The governments run a country, many democratic, republic, some communist, dictatorship, and some millitary. What ever be the type, everyone aims at peace ... or atleast try to.

But we fail to see the hard reality, how the world is standing on the edge of a knife. The world has always been unstable, since the new species came into being: the homosapiens. Its in our blood to fight, have hatred, go for war, etc. Homosapiens are different then other creatures, they are so called 'intelligent'. I wonder how is that only we are intelligent, and not any other species. The answer to that may be unknown, but I think its by chance or due to an error of nature that we are this way. Since man has come into being he has indulged in war. Since the ancient times, speak of it in hindus, the mahabharata, ramayana, or christin, of jesus, well I dont know much about others, but every tribe has been in war with any or every other. or let us come into the early medival period, we see the nine crusades, then the dark ages, and after that freedom struggle of america and a few other countries, then world war 1 and 2, then freedom struggle of India, then the thre wars India fought with Pakistan, and also Bangladesh, etc then we have the kargil war of 1999, and after that terrorist strike in US and many such in India, and not to mention the recent mumbai blasts.

If you look at the global scale, its been just 60 years since there has been a large scale war. Now, the time we are living in is actually probably the most peaceful time, god knows what will hapen later. Another large scale war and the world is doomed, considering we have lots of nukes this time. Presently all the countries are trying their level best to stop a world war, it may not seem so as they are getting involved in economic relationships and being friendly and all. But it comes down to the same thing. There will be a war, but everyone is trying their level best to postpone it. The reason for the war? .. well if you ask me to predict, it will most probably be another crusade. The first crusade was 1000 years ago, and maybe another may start. Why I am saying it is mainly because of terrorism. And the rest you can understand.

All the countries must try their level best to stop it at any cost. Be aware of whats happening, and well ... take correct measures. God knows what this world will come into. God created man one day, less did he know that this "man" would come to destroy the world someday... hope for the best!